We'll I've been working alot and not had a chance to write you guys here's what is going on my best friend Tammy is moving to Florida a split decision. After, her dum ass husband who is beyond sick decided to check his self out of ICU under doctors orders not to. He has had a weird thing that has happen to his blood if he lives more than a couple of years it will surprise me for sure. So Tammy, her sister and I went and unrolled her granddaughter from school today. I don't know what I will do without her so I have cried my tears and I wish her the best it would be selfish of me to want to keep her. This has to be a strange friendship considering she's at least 30 years older than me. She calls me her little sister and to me she has been like the Mom that I never had so sweet understanding and I do believe that God or fate whatever you want to call it had sent her to me. Then sometimes I think my sweet Aunt is somewhere watching over me from the great beyond. She will have more help in Florida than here with most of her family living there! But we will stay in touch and you can bet your sweet ass I will be headed south to see her.
After all the sunshine state is where I half grew up I feel it in the wind everything is about to change and whatever way this wind blows me I will ride this storm out cause I plan on making a better future for myself.
Even though here I am setting without a car to drive. Crazy yes but for some reason writing to the air and to people who don't even know help me. I wish I could have the time to say and tell everything in my life there would be those who wouldn't even believe me though every word would be true. When I was younger I used to write in journal all of the time but never look back to read them just to get everything out like venting. But as my Aunt used to say you wear your heart on a sleeve you shouldn't reveal so much about yourself. That wouldn't be me and I have nothing to hide good, great, bad, and even the ugly. These things are what makes use human! Its what we chose to do with them that determines how our life is in the end. My mistakes are what have made me into a stronger person. Of coarse I came home this morning and my garbage hidden been put on the side of the road like that was so hard. I guess I should have done it myself! That seems to be the only way anything gets done anymore. Oh, and I was locked out of my own house cause I had left my keys with my parents to see if they could figure out something with my car problems!
So I went home with Tammy until they finely called me and said they were under the mat on the porch, but I got to spend time with her. She gave me some of her house plants to have to remember her because she had no where to keep them or the room to take them! Of coarse my Ex didn't get up and take his self to work this morning I saw as we drove by his work to get to her house! Guess there goes anything about getting child support since he couldn't go to work but whats new at least its not my problem trying to get him up in the mornings to go! So yeah we so got into an argument this weekend he had some trashy girl and notice I didn't say woman call me and say I am his next baby's Momma ha ha I said we'll good luck with that maybe he'll take care of yours better than he takes care of mine! Lol, she wanted to go there with me someone I didn't know she wouldn't tell me who she was whatever! Don't get involved with my child and things that don't concern her I didn't want to but in like 2.5 seconds I went New Jersey's Snookie on that dum girl! I hate when someone can talk on a phone some smack to someone. She wouldn't even tell me who she was. She has no ideal who she is dealing with! I am a good girl by nature but don't piss me off! When it comes to my kids and interfering oh yell don't go there b*tch! I really don't care!
Then the fool was in the bathroom where ever he was telling me he was sorry he loved me, he wanted to come home! Don't think so like I said to her I don't deal with trash I take it out! That's okay my Palo is planning a trip for my Birthday to the Bitmore in Ashville,NC and he can wine and dine me all he wants!
Hope lit miss smarty pants likes Wendy's and further more the value meal after I take him to the cleaners for what little child support I get out of him! We'll that went out there guess you never heard that side of me before I can be hard core if I have to be! I want play a game I can't win! But really how rude it went back in forth he should have told her I am no dummy and I don't put up with bullshit from some one that I don't even know I mean do you blame me! We'll I need to go for now! Until, later!
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