We'll being in a so called love triangle in away sucks I have this guy that I pray is completely sincere in every way. Cause I don't know if I can handle another heart break and for the most part I DON'T even feel like leaving my house. I want to think that I have made the write chose for me and my children. I set and listen to Sara Evens I get a little bit stronger, oh and yes that is my song. I do need to come out of this depression somehow someway and I hope that who ever reads this and whomever it is that you pray to that you don't forget me! People who say its just a broken heart must have never had one. Starting over is like being naked in a room of people that you have never met. I am having it hard right now but I think I am num to everything. The ex came by earlier to make me feel bad I guess! He must not know I am slowly turning off my heart to him and forcing myself to move on to something I know can't be worse than living in a house with someone and still feeling lonely! On top of that I have a cold those type that your nose runs and you can't breath!
I wish I could have a break a vacation a me time to just forget about everything and do something different oh how I'd wish to visit Ireland or anywhere for that matter. I can dream though never stop dreaming no matter how bad it gets! There is my baby awaking from her nap! Time to go back to the real world and do what needs to be done!
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