Merry Chrismas~

 Merry Christmas! To everyone who reads this, I can't complain this has been one of the better Christmas's I have had in a long time. Looking for one more Christmas Gift, I would like to get the job at work and hopefully find my path from there. Have you ever thought that there was something else in this life you are suppost to do? We'll I hope that someday soon I will find what that is! Anyways God has been good this Christmas. I would like to change my life and become the person  I know that I was born to be. One day I would like to find this, we all have something that is our place in this world. That doesn't mean that you have become a president or famous actor just what fits you and who you where born to be.

Need A New Job!

 Today was an awful day, at work I had to call 911! I never want to be back in that position again, it was scary! That's all I have to say about that I could say more, but I won't. Anyways there has to be a better way to make a living by doing something that I really want to do. I just think that I am over worked and completly under paid.....for my job. If I don't get this position coming up I think I'll go job shopping the problem is there's not much out there. I need to move somewhere else, I thought about going to Teach Abroad somewhere. Who knows what the future holds there is so much that can happen.  I never have time to do anything anymore! So who is happy that Christmas is right around the corner, I cheated I am using my Christmas Present right now not bad present. Now all I need is all paid trip to Ireland, and I would love that.
Maybe I can get a new job in Ireland that would be sweet!
Anyway a new job and new dishwasher I got to go wash some, "Bummed"!
Merry Christmas!

Christmas can make anyone civil, even if you'd like to jump over a buggy and smack'em!

Its so close to Christmas so many presents to get and yet so little time. I can't believe how close it is. I've been so busy that I haven't had time to even write. To be honest I haven't much felt like it. Anyways tonight, was so strange I ran into my what was best friend of 14 yrs.. She was with that two timer of a boyfriend of hers'! Of coarse as anyone knows you can't tell a chic who "IS IN LOVE" that even if its the truth of the matter. Why are women so smart, but so dum at the same time any answer on that one? WERID AND STRANGE! She hasn't talked to me in months and there in the middle of tools and paint we did our dance of NOTHING IS WRONG! How have you been? As if we hadn't seen or known each other for years! As he was putting his mask with the fake smile on. Only to act good for her so he would look like the nice guy. While secretly he was calling me names that would make a sailor blush. ASSHOLE! Looks like he learned his lesson the first time he actully said those things out loud. Let me tell you I am the sweetest person you could ever meet, but say the right thing and catch me on my "To Hell with everything day" I tell Mike Tyson where to shove it! As I nicely did him! We'll the Christmas spirit came out and I let things be, for now! You ever meet one of those people who you know is just eatting you up to your face, and kicking your ass when your back is turned. We'll for her sake and cause I still love her as a friend I did, just let it be.....
So anyways if I can be civil on Christmas everyone can take a step back and remember the Christmas season and be a little good for man kind. Until, later goodnight!

Bedtime for me!

 We'll been watching a little T.V. the show Hoarder's tonight. Wow, thats an interesting subject. People you would never think are Hoarder's. We'll its so many sad stories sometimes I think people need a friend and some help....... Thats all I have to say about that, I really don't think that I'am the best story on here for sure! But I think and hope that people can relate to me.  I also think I am full of good advice, I hope so too! You know not everyone has a celebrety of a life. However, I think that some of the things I've seen and lived through could have been a great show for MTV! Thank God that is over with I like living on the down low!
My job we'll I could tell you, but I don't know if anyone would believe that. I'am glad to have some outlet to let my thoughts out. It's like having an online dairy...
 Thought to self I need to start my own Business! Wouldn't we all I really think I could be good at it. Oh, yeah I'd love to visit Ireland. One day before I lay my soul to rest, I will Ireland. It looks so beautiful!
Well I am saying random things that means I'am sleepy and need to go to bed! Until, tomarrow! Nite!

Its looking alot like Christmas!

 In the house sick as hell. Finally, feeling up to writing something, but I don't think anyone is reading it. Anyways every thing is white out side, Ive been drinking some green tea with honey trying to take care of this cold I have managed to get. I wish this was all over with I'd like to be able to breath again! Anyways been thinking that home made veggie soup is  going to be for dinner. Anyways had to work this weekend and Iam hoping to get this promotion at work. We'll if anyone deserved it, that would be me. My Mother thinks if I don't get the job I should put in my two week notice. I wish it would be that simple but as anyone knows jobs aren't the easy to come buy these days! We'll I had a melt down at the gas pumps other day for sure, can I say please people have some manners. I know its close to Christmas and everyone is stressed but seriously after getting cut off at the gas pumps twice waiting for over than 20mintunes. I had something to say to the second guy especially when I had two children in the car and had to pick up another one from a school activity. You know usually I am a really patient person, but more and more people have begun to be so disrespectful! Don't run into me on the wrong day I ask who to complain to and made it very plain I thought my dog had more manners after asking him was he raised to be rude! Honestly, I don't know what came over me, but I have no problem waiting my turn. If I am at the grocery store with alot of items I let the guy behind me go if he only has a couple of items.
  At what point did people think it was o.k. to be rude, and so disrespectful? We'll anyways that was the high light of my life on last friday. But back to work I would really would love to have the job. Not including its salery paid, which would be great for my family and life style. Just wait and see how it goes. I need to so finsih my Christmas shopping I hate waiting until the last mintune I have alot done, but so much more to do.
Anyways I keep turning this damn yellow back ground on somehow and dont know how to fix it. Wow! I have got rusty on this whole computer thing. I was so hoping to go and see a house on sunday we were thinking of buying. The snow was coming down so heavy that it was a really bad time. We'll time to go for now I need to blow my nose and go pee. Until the next time, goodbye.

17 days and counting! It's almost Christmas!

 Can you believe how close it is to Christmas Iam excited, but at the same time I'll be glad to get it over with! That's really strange to me because honestly Christmas has always been my favorite holiday for sure. There is so much I want to do and fix in my life and I know it will take time. We all have a lot to be thankful for and never think of it! I guess ever since my Aunt died its like someone turned a light on in my head. I think of some of the strangest things and death more than I ever did before. She was a strong, smart and funny woman that was a joy to know. I miss her with my whole heart. However, I know that she is with me and watches over me. It makes me worry alot about my Grandmother shes 90 and has been more like a Mother to me than a Grandmother. I worry about when I lose her I think I might lose myself in sorrow.
  She is an great woman a queen lion in her world, she raised 13 children and survied the depression!  She really should have a book wrote about her life. It seems that all the women in my family have a strength that come's from an supernatural place in their souls. I am proud to be apart of this! You know blogging I think is good for the soul and the stress that this world can bring to you. You vent without screeming to who ever reads this. Thank you for letting me! We'll time for me to sleep I am tired! Goodnight all!

Midnight post

I've felt like crap all day I think I am coming down with flu! My throat hurts and I think everyone in the house is going to be sick I already seen runny noses today this sucks! Got to go in the morning and get everyone some medcine.