So here is how it goes today my neighbor/ friend talked me into going and seeing if the Ex who says he is still in love with me is really doing what he says he is doing. He is an argent s.o.b. I don't know who or what he thinks he is I was giving him a chance to change and see if he really was going to do what he said he was. He doesn't want to hear the truth about anything at all what am I to do about that. I don't know how much more I can take and he is stuck up his Mom's ass he needs to get off the tit for real. I just am so mad that he is acting like I did all this my self its all my fault and that isn't true all the stress from this just had warn me thin I couldn't handle it anymore the lies, and the gambling! He drove me into some one elses arms and now hes doing it again I think that he just wants me to wait on him how long I've waited 4 years for him to put a ring on my finger and he hasn't yet he is so selfish.
So yes I am venting into thin air and it seems as if no one cares at all. How does all the bs that he does turn around into my fault and basically he said he wasn't asking me to put my life on hold but he is should I just go ahead and go on my trip or what? I think that I should just move on and for get it maybe that's what he is wanting me to do! I have blown off Palo who does nothing but try with me! I am a dumass! Trying to make this work but it doesn't seem that simple anymore and if he truly wanted to wouldn't he come home and try? I don't know and am to tired to care at this point got to get up early kids have school! So tired don't feel like typing. Goodnight All!
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