Oh, Valentine's Day!

 We'll let me tell you how that went it was good, bad, and then good again. My friend came over with her granddaughter and babysat my kids.Which was really sweet of her considering she got remarried yesterday. We'll they'd been married years before divorced, got back together, and now remarried again. She been going through somethings also with their daughter I really feel sorry for her. My friend is my Mothers' age, but we get along. Today shes getting temp. custody of her daughters' kids. They through the book at her and put her in jail shes got serious charges coming at her. If she lucky she'll get probation! However, shes going to get jail time either way you look at it. Always how freaking dumb is it to protect a piece of shit man over protecting herself and her kids. Iam not saying shes not also at fault but come on...... at what point don't they understand what they do not only effects them it's like a chain reaction, now kids are without a Mother and The Grandmothers' watching the kids. It's just one big ugly mess, which I told my friend I would do what ever I could do to help her with watching the children. On top of that this guy she's so head over heels with let her ass and the other two people and ran. I hope they find his sorry ass really I do!
 He better hope I don't see him out I'll call in on him maybe even follow him so the cops can get him. I think at this point I have a special hate for guys like that "USERS IN AWAY"!  But the last thing I'll say about this is that some people have no business with kids if you can't take care of them. Give them to someone who will and love them!
Now I kinda got off the subject anyways I went out to dinner last night me and my better half. We went to a pretty nice place. I started to feel like I was on that show "Boiling Point" it was like where are the camera, or now where is Ashton, am I being punk'd no I am not famous,lol! We have patience really it took 2hours and a half to get our food I am not kidding. Come on it doesn't take a hour to get a salad, right! We'll I am not the person to complain about things and if I do you seriously suck at what your doing.Like if you ask for no pickles, they put pickles on your sandwich anyways, I'll just take them off and put them to the side. We sat patiently while the couple next to use went through a four course dinner. I am not a bitchy person but it was Valentine's Day! So I ask for a manager cause we couldn't even get the waiter over to the table long enough to get a check for our drinks. Really my better half wanted to walk out and not even pay, I'll say pretty mad.
So anyways the manager said your food is coming out right now. Just have it on me! I can't complain about a free meal, and who knows how long it would have took to get into somewhere else with a reservation.
   So we stayed ate some of it, I have to say my Lobster was really good but we where so full from drinking sweet tea, and wine. That we took most of it home with us. I guess that Patience is a virtue is true! Our tab was $65.00 and we got it completely free. Would I go back sure the food was good, but I am not going to want that waiter. I actually kind of felt sorry for the little guy he forgot our food and then another couple up from us he got their order wrong so the manager had to come out again. I hope he didn't get fired, I just think maybe they should put him on dished or something. Who knows maybe he was new, but two hours late on food not cool for me! We'll got some major work to be done! Until, next time!

chaos

So anyways bought a house and haven't had time to write or breathe for that matter! It's a fixeruper I just didn't know how much fixing I would have to do. Here I have a house with a house payment and can't move in. I seriously hope that I can get everything done before I have to pay another month of rent in this house. Man this is a crazy thing you know I wanted a house so badly and it's not that I'am ungreatful to have it, but this is alot of work!!!! Um, so many run on sentences Oh Well it's not like Iam writing for a English Lit. paper or I would so fell... Anyways myself and my worser half at the moment have almost killed each other the last couple of weeks. All this stress is getting to me work, work, and work after work. My better half really is working 10 hour days and coming home working on the other house "the one we bought" and we still haven't got everything packed Iam caving in like a nut! At this point I need a shrink!!!!
 I really wouldn't like to see Lowes or a hardware store again until I build my Pergola getting to much time from me. I love designing and decorating don't get me wrong but whoa! So I was talking to the guy mixing my paint and was trying to explain exactly what I was doing to my cabinet's he so didn't get! You know when you can't replace "Paint"! Either way I hope it comes out good cause I have to live with it until next year. I bought my youngest daughter today a really cute vintage rocking chair, it's never been touched no paint at all, guess what Iam painting it. Sure, its got the original little puppy dog on the back but the wood is fading! When I told the woman I planned on painting it I think she almost had a heart attack! So I found this really pretty green paint and I'am so painting it and painting her name on it to! But the good news is I only paid $20.00 a good buy I think!
Maybe I'll get to write some more this week if I'am not killed!

Sushi

 We'll went over the budget tonight and took the family out to a Japanese steak house. Got my hunnie to taste some sushi for the first time. I think that he didn't want to admit it wasn't that bad. I am sure that there is better after all were from a smaller town. To cute I feed my baby some fryed rice tonight, shes' probably had more tastes from different foods' than most babies. A little Chinese, Mexican and tonight Japanese. You have to open up their food obtions, and never say "thats gross" let them descide what they think of a certain food. I had tuna and red snapper not bad! Try it!
  Gave me an excuse to teach how to say Thank You and Your Welcome don't ask me how to spell it I have a hard enough time spelling english. Sometimes I feel like the abscent minded professor. I know it but it just didn't always come out. Anyways here you go English/ sorta to Japanese,, I think this is how it sounds anyways "Ariegottoe gunzalie mas" Thank You" I promise that is not how you spell it but thats how you say it. In a werid American way, Lol! Tomorrow, work work work I want to cry why can't I just win the lottery, oh thats right I have to play it first! Man alive people are crazy some of the things that go on around me blow my mind.....
   Sometimes are you just speechless yeah I feel that way on a day to day basis. You know how they say sex, drugs and rocknroll. No, its drugs, sorryness"if you can use that as a word",and bullshit! This whole drug thing you hear about around here, I guess its everywhere but come on people some of the stuff is just stupid! You going to put something into your body that people use rat posion in O.K. come on!"STUPID" I am sorry but thats all you hear about anymore Meth labs even on the news just damn crazy!
You know what people needs Hobbies, a Job, Something to keep their minds off this shit! Pardon my french, I'll give myself a censor "maynot be great for some audiences, will sometimes swear, "Sorry"!
Anyways on that note got to get some sleep! Hope to dream of Johnny Depp tonight. What! $1,000 dollars to park a car in New York! Thats crazy, watching the late night with David L.. He can be so funny! We'll nite all!

Out tonight!

 I guess my family will be going out to dinner tonight. I don't feel like cooking and think Chinese is on the menu. I love it! Trying to get everyone ready is the hardest part of it. Anyways I've been taking online coarses for my job, it sucks kind of. I know it sounds bad but got to go back to work tomorrow and I dread it. I should be happy to have a job but sometimes I wish I could stay at home with my children to mold them more. I feel like I am missing out on so much. The one thing you can never get back is the time you spend with them. Its sort of sad, here today gone tomorrow. We'll my relationship has been going a little better in the last couple of days. However, I feel like it needs alot of work and sometimes wonder what I am doing in it besides the kids. I hope that I can make a change for the good!
I wish that everything in the next couple of days goes good keep your fingers crossed.
 We'll out of here Iam hungrey!

oh!

 We'll anyways Iam so tired and I have so much to say I worked 64hrs. this weekend. Hopeing to get on the move with my writing it frees me. Its like venting I need to breath from the crying baby girl, drama and uncertainy of my life.... Seriously need a vacation or a change so I can get my thoughts together. Need to know how to keep it together at this point, anyone got ideals? On top of that this getting your life together really is hard sometimes. Add a bunch of fake people with that is drama. Sometimes I'd like to go and hide!

I don't know!

 Tonight I had a really bad fight with someone that I love and suppost to love me..... What do you do when you talk but no one listens to anything you have to say? I dont know anymore! I feel alone sometimes when someone is in the same house with me. I dont know I guess it could be worse, I would say think really hard before you jump into relationship,,,but does anyone ever really think about that. No, I dont think so. All I do know is relationships take WORK its not easy. Something just doesn't feel right at all! We'll thats all I have to say about that. Fighting, makes me tired I think I'll call it a night!

BLAH!

 What can I say I am so tired that I havent got the energy to say much and to be honest I maybe a bit boring tonight. I haven't wrote anything in forever so much for devotion..... Anyways my job is killing me I just keep thinking 1 more year and I am sooooo out of here. Not only did I not get the job I had worked my butt off for "GET THIS", I get asked monday night to work it for the other person haha! Your kidding right thats what I was thinking! Anyways I ask what am I doing there? BEING USED THANKS TO THE ON GOING ECONMY!LOVELY! But enough said about that I am sick of that I have to self motivate my self to go! Hopefully, the new house want let me become so depressed with more room I love that! I can fix it how I like it! Man I like that !!!! button tonight can't tell you why!!!
 So anyways it is so freaking cold tonight I can't wait to lay down and cuddle under my covers go to sleep.... We paid a small deposit tonight for a house, and went to Mr. Ghattis to eat.
   I hope that we're doing the right thing I wanted something more out into the country. Got to do what you can afford sometimes not what you like. But for the most part its what we need four bedrooms and one bath. The one bath I hope can be changed to two. Just cause its big doesn't mean its new. I have some work ahead of me for sure. But I am not afraid of work thats what you have to do if you want to get somewhere in this life.....
   If your waiting on someone to give you something your probably going to wait a long time! We'll I need some shut eye, going to finsih my show and hit the sack!