Merry Chrismas~

 Merry Christmas! To everyone who reads this, I can't complain this has been one of the better Christmas's I have had in a long time. Looking for one more Christmas Gift, I would like to get the job at work and hopefully find my path from there. Have you ever thought that there was something else in this life you are suppost to do? We'll I hope that someday soon I will find what that is! Anyways God has been good this Christmas. I would like to change my life and become the person  I know that I was born to be. One day I would like to find this, we all have something that is our place in this world. That doesn't mean that you have become a president or famous actor just what fits you and who you where born to be.

Need A New Job!

 Today was an awful day, at work I had to call 911! I never want to be back in that position again, it was scary! That's all I have to say about that I could say more, but I won't. Anyways there has to be a better way to make a living by doing something that I really want to do. I just think that I am over worked and completly under paid.....for my job. If I don't get this position coming up I think I'll go job shopping the problem is there's not much out there. I need to move somewhere else, I thought about going to Teach Abroad somewhere. Who knows what the future holds there is so much that can happen.  I never have time to do anything anymore! So who is happy that Christmas is right around the corner, I cheated I am using my Christmas Present right now not bad present. Now all I need is all paid trip to Ireland, and I would love that.
Maybe I can get a new job in Ireland that would be sweet!
Anyway a new job and new dishwasher I got to go wash some, "Bummed"!
Merry Christmas!

Christmas can make anyone civil, even if you'd like to jump over a buggy and smack'em!

Its so close to Christmas so many presents to get and yet so little time. I can't believe how close it is. I've been so busy that I haven't had time to even write. To be honest I haven't much felt like it. Anyways tonight, was so strange I ran into my what was best friend of 14 yrs.. She was with that two timer of a boyfriend of hers'! Of coarse as anyone knows you can't tell a chic who "IS IN LOVE" that even if its the truth of the matter. Why are women so smart, but so dum at the same time any answer on that one? WERID AND STRANGE! She hasn't talked to me in months and there in the middle of tools and paint we did our dance of NOTHING IS WRONG! How have you been? As if we hadn't seen or known each other for years! As he was putting his mask with the fake smile on. Only to act good for her so he would look like the nice guy. While secretly he was calling me names that would make a sailor blush. ASSHOLE! Looks like he learned his lesson the first time he actully said those things out loud. Let me tell you I am the sweetest person you could ever meet, but say the right thing and catch me on my "To Hell with everything day" I tell Mike Tyson where to shove it! As I nicely did him! We'll the Christmas spirit came out and I let things be, for now! You ever meet one of those people who you know is just eatting you up to your face, and kicking your ass when your back is turned. We'll for her sake and cause I still love her as a friend I did, just let it be.....
So anyways if I can be civil on Christmas everyone can take a step back and remember the Christmas season and be a little good for man kind. Until, later goodnight!

Bedtime for me!

 We'll been watching a little T.V. the show Hoarder's tonight. Wow, thats an interesting subject. People you would never think are Hoarder's. We'll its so many sad stories sometimes I think people need a friend and some help....... Thats all I have to say about that, I really don't think that I'am the best story on here for sure! But I think and hope that people can relate to me.  I also think I am full of good advice, I hope so too! You know not everyone has a celebrety of a life. However, I think that some of the things I've seen and lived through could have been a great show for MTV! Thank God that is over with I like living on the down low!
My job we'll I could tell you, but I don't know if anyone would believe that. I'am glad to have some outlet to let my thoughts out. It's like having an online dairy...
 Thought to self I need to start my own Business! Wouldn't we all I really think I could be good at it. Oh, yeah I'd love to visit Ireland. One day before I lay my soul to rest, I will Ireland. It looks so beautiful!
Well I am saying random things that means I'am sleepy and need to go to bed! Until, tomarrow! Nite!

Its looking alot like Christmas!

 In the house sick as hell. Finally, feeling up to writing something, but I don't think anyone is reading it. Anyways every thing is white out side, Ive been drinking some green tea with honey trying to take care of this cold I have managed to get. I wish this was all over with I'd like to be able to breath again! Anyways been thinking that home made veggie soup is  going to be for dinner. Anyways had to work this weekend and Iam hoping to get this promotion at work. We'll if anyone deserved it, that would be me. My Mother thinks if I don't get the job I should put in my two week notice. I wish it would be that simple but as anyone knows jobs aren't the easy to come buy these days! We'll I had a melt down at the gas pumps other day for sure, can I say please people have some manners. I know its close to Christmas and everyone is stressed but seriously after getting cut off at the gas pumps twice waiting for over than 20mintunes. I had something to say to the second guy especially when I had two children in the car and had to pick up another one from a school activity. You know usually I am a really patient person, but more and more people have begun to be so disrespectful! Don't run into me on the wrong day I ask who to complain to and made it very plain I thought my dog had more manners after asking him was he raised to be rude! Honestly, I don't know what came over me, but I have no problem waiting my turn. If I am at the grocery store with alot of items I let the guy behind me go if he only has a couple of items.
  At what point did people think it was o.k. to be rude, and so disrespectful? We'll anyways that was the high light of my life on last friday. But back to work I would really would love to have the job. Not including its salery paid, which would be great for my family and life style. Just wait and see how it goes. I need to so finsih my Christmas shopping I hate waiting until the last mintune I have alot done, but so much more to do.
Anyways I keep turning this damn yellow back ground on somehow and dont know how to fix it. Wow! I have got rusty on this whole computer thing. I was so hoping to go and see a house on sunday we were thinking of buying. The snow was coming down so heavy that it was a really bad time. We'll time to go for now I need to blow my nose and go pee. Until the next time, goodbye.

17 days and counting! It's almost Christmas!

 Can you believe how close it is to Christmas Iam excited, but at the same time I'll be glad to get it over with! That's really strange to me because honestly Christmas has always been my favorite holiday for sure. There is so much I want to do and fix in my life and I know it will take time. We all have a lot to be thankful for and never think of it! I guess ever since my Aunt died its like someone turned a light on in my head. I think of some of the strangest things and death more than I ever did before. She was a strong, smart and funny woman that was a joy to know. I miss her with my whole heart. However, I know that she is with me and watches over me. It makes me worry alot about my Grandmother shes 90 and has been more like a Mother to me than a Grandmother. I worry about when I lose her I think I might lose myself in sorrow.
  She is an great woman a queen lion in her world, she raised 13 children and survied the depression!  She really should have a book wrote about her life. It seems that all the women in my family have a strength that come's from an supernatural place in their souls. I am proud to be apart of this! You know blogging I think is good for the soul and the stress that this world can bring to you. You vent without screeming to who ever reads this. Thank you for letting me! We'll time for me to sleep I am tired! Goodnight all!

Midnight post

I've felt like crap all day I think I am coming down with flu! My throat hurts and I think everyone in the house is going to be sick I already seen runny noses today this sucks! Got to go in the morning and get everyone some medcine.

Pitch me a tent!

 At this point you can pitch me a tent! Seriously, who ever thought that this home buying shit could be so crazy. Lets face it I've made so really poor choices in my life and I can't change them. Honestly, I don't know if I would now! Only one and that would be my buying and spending. Listen if I knew what I know now Donald move over."Gotta love the Donald, smart man" bad love life choices! I am right there with ya Donald.
Only million's of dollars behind you and I live on your pocket change. Anyways have you ever felt like someone walked in and turned a light on in your mind. Yeah, I've had a couple of those moments. But if anyone has any ideals or thoughts on the real estate business I am all ears. No, I am not going to cry again.
I think that I would like to go back to bed and cover my head hide for weeks in my depression. Oh, we'll in the real world you can't do that! We'll you could but it will only make things worse. Take a nap or a time out.
I have to give myself time outs all the time. Now all I need is a new lazyboy for a time out chair, that would be great. Well need to go pays some bills need lights in the house!

My wish list!

 Tonight I had a total break down, and just cried. Why? We'll I've been looking and looking for a house somewhere just of my own. Yes, I rent but its so far from what I want and need. At this point I just don't know how to feel! At the top of my wish list is just my own little space in this world! It doesn't have to be anything special just special to me. It doesn't have to make MTV's Cribs or even anyone else's dream home.
I'am not trying to get something I know I can't afford or something that makes my life so tight that I can't order take out Chinese. A home that one day be feeled with the memories that never can be replaced or put a price on that's all. So if your out there to who ever you pray to, or hope to; think of me tonight. And I will already say thank you. You know sometimes I feel a little selfish to think this and that I should be greatful no matter what I have, but I guess this is turning into a need so I really hope that so doesn't make me be selfish.
 Anyways its snowing like crazy out here tonight, and I am ready to "How do you say it" READY TO HIT THE HAY! Good night to you and ours! Hopefully, old man weather is treating you good!

What ever floats your boat!

We'll Iam on a break at work and yes I am blogging. This week we got a paper sent out saying that all the staff has to sign about writing about work via the internet. Why? Cause some comments about work that has went on the Facebook. We'll I wasn't one of those people and until this very blog I've spoke of it. However,
I wonder if they have ever heard about THE FREEDOM OF SPEECH! I understand that you have to be professional on the highest level. What does that say however about this work place. You alway hear about these horrible stories on ciber bulling with school's. Why not let it out of the bag it happens in the work place also! Don't punish the one's who haven't done anything! Every once in a while everyone needs to vent "man this job sucks" as long as they don't take it to far!However, in this case someone had to take it to far.
And have you ever heard of your work space spying on your Facebook to see what is going on in your personal lifes. Now thats strange, who knows! I was wondering if any one ever heard of this! I guess what ever floats their boat!

Late Night Start

We'll had to work tonight and got home late, and man now I am killed! Latenite, dinner not that healthy I think crab legs, melted butter,broccoli and cheese, and some toasted cheese bread. I have so much to say but I am to tired to write and to think. Just trying to stay focused on something. However, keep your hearts and prayers to those three little boys missing in Ohio. I really hope they come home safe. It is Christmas soon hopefully tis' the season for hope. We'll got to lay down before I fall down.

RANDOM THOUGHTS/ Black Friday

 We'll picked up the kids from school. I must say today I haven't done much of anything. As much as I've worked here lately I deserve some down time.  I've done nothing but watch the food network all day and man have these people been starving me. I'am ready to eat something good! Just got done watchingGiada and now watching the Barefoot Contessa. So anyways I went to the Black Friday sale for two things and I got out alive! LOL! Two men got into a fight over a T.V. of coarse neither one of them got it. They went to jail! I guess what made me think of that was the Food Network and Paula Dean. Paula Dean cook ware was on sale for like $89.00 and the sale's clerk got scratched in the face. I love Paula as much as the next gal, but that was nuts and Ididn't get a set of cook ware. Anyways the salad on the Barefoot Contessa is to die for I think Ill have salad tonight. To bad I couldn't have the one off the show. Until tomorrow maybe got to take Moms' gift back and grab dinner. 
OUT THE DOOR, WILLOWBROOK

What a day!

 Hello, this will be the first time I've ever bloged so I'am an not the best at this to say the least. But I really think that this will be good for me. On top of that soon it will be the 1st of the New Year and hopefully I can make some changes that will make a better life for myself and my family. We'll I guess as everyone else the hustle and bustle of Christmas I think is getting to me. Don't get me wrong I love the Christmas Holiday! But the struggle of buying for so many people and taking care of the bills is diffcult. However, I have got a good start on it. This morning was insane getting the kids off for school and the baby down for a nap, teething is taking it toll on us both. I also am in the middle of getting this house organized I need help from "The Amandas"! Has anyone ever seen that show I don't know what network its on. But it is a group of people who come into your home and organize it. I'am there with it, love to have it done.
 Tomorrow, is work what to say about work, it make me tired and is one crazy high school drama show. I need a better job. Maybe I should move no, I think maybe start my own business. I have been thinking about that seriously! Well here is the last for now maybe tonight I'll write. I have to go and return my Mothers Christmas Present she came over and unwrapped it to make sure I got what she wanted. Of coarse it wasn't the right thing, could you be more rude? How wild is that? Goodness I wish sometimes Dr. Phil was my next door neighbor. O.K. no more MSNBC I think I'll watch the Food Network. I heard this morning that kids where trying to get high of off Nutmeg are you kidding me. What next you'll have to be 18 to buy spices, "ding" ."ding" can I see you I.D.. REALLY WOW!
Nice to be writing ya, Willowbrook